by cobe571 » Wed May 27, 2020 11:36 pm
It took me a long time to start writing this. However, it is time to talk about my mistakes and my faults over the years in this community. I made more than one mistake and not only with Josh (Octal). I have no excuse. I threw Josh's name away and passed that piece of code like mine. Not only. In a very arrogant way I used a very rude language, and it was not the first time that I behaved that way. I haven't respected you in many ways. I haven't respect the whole community. To name the most important I knewd in the whole community. I can say that I didn't respect Emmanuel Baranger, much earlier, who taught me many things and introduced me to the FG community for the first time. I know he will never forgive me, but this is the right place to say how wrong I was. I didn't respect FGUK's StuartC in many ways, being myself an asshole and a really fucking bastard. My attitude fucks me and you were right. I know he will never talk to me again. But like I said, I want to admit my faults. I also did it with Abbasign who received the worst words and worst moods from me. Like the others I have named, I think I will never get an answer. I did it with Maverick16 and many other people too. Every person I have named is a true collaborator of the FG project. Their efforts and work have inspired me many times over the years. My attitude is always terribly wrong. I make my mistakes, I realize I'm wrong in too many ways. I fight day by day to control my anger. This is a fact in my life for many years. And being angry, I also act stupid. I am also ungrateful. I have learned a lot from all of you. With all of you I made the worst mistake. I acted like an ungrateful bitch. That's all. I really feel wrong. I feel I don't deserve to be here so long. I wish I could think I could keep doing something of my 3D models, but I can't go on if I don't admit my mistakes in front of everyone first. For all of that I want to say I'm sorry. Yes, I'm sorry. It will never be enough, for the most of you, but I will never deny my faults, my lacks, and I admit all my mistakes.
Kind regards,
~P.
"According to the laws of aerodynamics, the bumblebee can't fly either, but the bumblebee doesn't know anything about the laws of aerodynamics, so it goes ahead and flies anyway."